My first post in a couple of days, sorry for the wait readers! Amongst studying and generally living away from the Internet I stumbled upon my next topic inadvertently; let’s talk about sex. And I don’t mean in a steamy, teen romance kind of way , I mean it in a lets be totally practical sense.
So, I’m a Christian, and since the dawn of time adults have been telling me to wait till marriage. I think by the time I was 11 I had it in my head that I was going to cling to virginity till I was 30. Then I hit puberty and I figured out why everyone found it crazy hard: the opposite sex is extremely attractive! Not only that but being the insecure female I was preprogrammed to be I wanted to be desirable too! What was once a simple decision turned into a minefield of hormones, emotions and a little bit of peer pressure.
I can take a bit of comfort in the fact that I’m not alone, most teens are either having sex or wishing they were having sex. I have no stats for you because you don’t need to hear again how many under 16’s are carrying babies, STD’s or just having wicked nights out. I was under the illusion that because everyone else was doing it, it wasn’t an issue for me to be free, the only reason I wasn’t being free was because of that tiny voice saying “not now”.
I’m not saying I didn’t date, because I did, and boy did it open my eyes! Love can really suck. It hurts, it’s expensive and I you’re thinking about long distance be prepared to spend a lot of time on Skype. Needless to say it didn’t end as I hopes as I’m now single.
Being a little older and a lot wiser I can now say I wasn’t mature enough for that kind of emotional responsibility. A lot of teens aren’t, and to be honest some adults aren’t either.
The point of this post – people are looking for that one in a million love by trial and error and damaging themselves in the process. I can’t tell anyone what to do, but for me, I want to give that one in a million something no one else has ever experienced. So if that means I have to bench myself for a couple of years, so be it; the rewards are greater.